Well I am new to Blogging and new to this site. I thought I was crazy and twisted in away that no one could understand. I know my friends would not understand the relationship my husband and I have. While I am an independent woman and have a great career, I am old fashion in the sense that I believe my husband is the head of our household. I follow what he says, and yes I have my own opinion and we discuss everything but if he thinks something is best, I do tend to go along with it. I trust him and he has always put our family first.
He does discipline me by spanking me and taking away my credit cards/debit cards. I have never been publicly punished, but if I get a bit out of line in front of people, he will make a certain look and I know for a fact, when we get home he will be using his belt on my bottom. Typically he makes me bend over our bath tub and trust me ...I do as he says. The most public discipline I have ever received was at a party at our home, I said something that made him very upset and we went upstairs and man oh man, I was completely embarrassed and while I felt my spanking was deserved, I wondered why he could not have waited to punish me when our friends had left. When I asked he told me not to question and spanked me again. He also said he would bet next time I would mind my P's and Q's. Which, of course I did!
Am I different because I like being disciplined by him? Is it odd that I feel well kept and looked after with him in this role? Does it make me odd or a bad person because even though I cry while I am being punished, I feel safe? Is it a bad thing? I have felt odd for so long, then to stumble onto this site and find there is a name for it LDD... I never imagined! To be honest, it has been awhile since I have been punished and I have been a complete brat, almost like I am pushing him....kind of makes me wonder why he is not putting me in my place? I feel crazy and really need some guidance from anyone that can help me! How do you handle this? Is there anyone out there that feels the same way as I do? Is it wrong that I am submissive to him and view him the way I do? Is it healthy?
Any feedback or comments would be much appreciated! I am in need of some good advice, along with a good spanking! I feel like they help me be a better wife and person, odd? Maybe but I feel like I want to almost serve him and I like to be an obedient wife. I like that I fear his belt or paddle. How can I talk to him about this and let him know I need punishment to be more regular in our marital life? I need to know I have limits and there are consequences if I push those limits.
Again, any suggestions would be amazing! Thanks for reading my first Blog and I will take any ideas to heart!
Longing to be disciplined!
J
